A conglomeration of aesthetically pleasing miscellany and the rambling thoughts of a caffeinated mind.An Inquiry Perhaps?
I AM REALLY INTO THIS SONG ABOUT ROBOTS.
But actually robots gaining self awareness and falling in love with people is one of my favorite tropes?? If this show didn’t have so many creepy moments I’d probably be a puddle on the floor.
Ugh he’s so stupid it hurts me so much I love him?
Managed to stumble into a conversation between non-native speakers about the program. So very glad I did so, but now I am super worried.
I stopped checking my grades a while ago? I just can’t deal with the stress. Handling a fractured language ego while nursing social anxiety on less sleep than I’m used to leaves me with little to no motivation to do my work. I take part in class and I’m learning a ton but the work I’m putting into my classes is ~*shit*~. I’m not the only one though! All of the non-native speakers are horrified by what’s happening to their confidence and how their grades are turning out. Maybe this week we’ll go and meet with a professor or two to talk about what’s going on. As was summed up nicely by a classmate: We have to have a minimum of straight B-’s in order to continue on to next year but at this point it might just be easier to quit while we’re ahead.
The problem is that this is the only program at this school geared solely towards native speakers of the language. It’s perfectly accepted that non-native speakers teach french, spanish, german, etc. but god forbid a non-native speaker attempts to use their Chinese for anything other than a side skill tacked on to their main job.
I feel kind of sick. I still have a homework to do but it just doesn’t feel worth doing. Of course grade wise it is but I just want to quit entirely right now.
What I mean when I say “I can’t do that”- Anxiety Version:
- I am unable to do that
- I am too stressed out to do that
- I cannot face the humiliation of attempting to do that
- My body will physically not allow me to do that
- I am on the verge of a panic attack
- I cannot do that
What people hear:
- I am unwilling to do that
- I am just shy
- I am overreacting
- I am lazy
- I need to get more experience in social situation to help my anxiety
- I need a push
- I don’t want to do that
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